It's Monday. I'm sitting on the cream-colored plush carpet in front of the fireplace in my brand new bright and spacious town house. It's cold outside but the sunshine and blue skies are making it easier to focus on the positive.
For example, I am current on my rent (for the next 8 days). I have internet, cable and toilet paper, which will last me a life time since I bought it in bulk at Costco.
As I consider my position in life right now I remind myself that all is not lost. In fact, I have just discovered that the chocolate cupcakes with the delicious vanilla butter-cream frosting that my handsome lawyer date brought me last night are gluten free! Along with this small delight, I consider that I have in my refrigerator the champagne that he also brought and leftover Italian wine. My gas tank is half full. I'm 25. I'm young and beautiful. I have dreams. I have potential. I have a solid resume. And just in fucking case, I have about 1/3 of a special brownie left in my freezer. But, that's just in case.
On the other hand, the reality is that I just lost my job at a law firm. It's two days until Christmas and this just happened. It was pathetic. I cried. My boss, excuse me, ex-boss brought me into the conference room and told me that she will be laying me off. I can't say that I was surprised. She had text me before I left to work to ask me to bring her book about brains. She was acting funny when I came in. She wanted to talk to me in the conference room. I'm no dummy. However, I felt pretty damn weak when I had tears start to drip out of my eyeballs like a leaky faucet.
What the hell should I do now? How can I afford my life? I was able to come from broke ass living in a car to living in this beautiful new home. Now I have to go back? That does not seem like an option to me. That does not seem like an option at all. I refuse to accept this as anything less than an opportunity for something better. I don't know what the hell I will do about money but I DO know that I'm about to eat a damn gluten free chocolate cupcake with delicious vanilla butter-cream frosting. THAT seems like a good start to something great!
For example, I am current on my rent (for the next 8 days). I have internet, cable and toilet paper, which will last me a life time since I bought it in bulk at Costco.
As I consider my position in life right now I remind myself that all is not lost. In fact, I have just discovered that the chocolate cupcakes with the delicious vanilla butter-cream frosting that my handsome lawyer date brought me last night are gluten free! Along with this small delight, I consider that I have in my refrigerator the champagne that he also brought and leftover Italian wine. My gas tank is half full. I'm 25. I'm young and beautiful. I have dreams. I have potential. I have a solid resume. And just in fucking case, I have about 1/3 of a special brownie left in my freezer. But, that's just in case.
On the other hand, the reality is that I just lost my job at a law firm. It's two days until Christmas and this just happened. It was pathetic. I cried. My boss, excuse me, ex-boss brought me into the conference room and told me that she will be laying me off. I can't say that I was surprised. She had text me before I left to work to ask me to bring her book about brains. She was acting funny when I came in. She wanted to talk to me in the conference room. I'm no dummy. However, I felt pretty damn weak when I had tears start to drip out of my eyeballs like a leaky faucet.
What the hell should I do now? How can I afford my life? I was able to come from broke ass living in a car to living in this beautiful new home. Now I have to go back? That does not seem like an option to me. That does not seem like an option at all. I refuse to accept this as anything less than an opportunity for something better. I don't know what the hell I will do about money but I DO know that I'm about to eat a damn gluten free chocolate cupcake with delicious vanilla butter-cream frosting. THAT seems like a good start to something great!
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